Me and the monkeys (the monkeys and I) went to the new Whole Foods, Target, and Home Depot the other day. It’s about an hours drive away. First mistake: eat a good breakfast before going multi-store shopping with your kids. We hit Home Depot first then Target. Of course no one wanted to stay in the buggy. An owl neck would have come in handy. That way I wouldn’t constantly be turning in circles to see where the other one went thinking in that split second I’ve lost one. I know how it feels to get lost. I lost my mom in TJ&Y once. Not fun.
So, by the time I was done I had more stuff than I meant to get. Who doesn’t when they go to Target? I must have looked very stressed by the time I got to checkout. The woman asked how I was doing today. Normal. Then she asked me how I felt. No so normal. I told her I had a bit of a headache, that I hadn’t eaten yet and was tired. Then she asked if I took vitamins. Then told me to eat plenty of green vegetables and drink a lot of water. She asked if I slept. She asked what was bothering me. Well, I thought. I was honest. Finances, marriage, kids, life. She told me to give it to the Lord. Just give it to the Lord. She asked if my husband had a job. Yes, I said. Do you have a roof over your head? Yes, I said. Everyone healthy? Yes, I said. She said, Give it to the Lord. You’ll be ok. Read Psalm 23.
I was almost in tears by the time I walked off. You never know when you are going run into a person who is kind and caring beyond belief to a perfect stranger. She only told me a bit about herself- that her second job was causing her so much stress. That she couldn’t sleep.
I said a prayer as soon as I left for her. You never know where or when God is going to speak to you.
During the summer the kids get up super early. During the school the kids get up super early. I can only keep in mind it’s only 10 years to teenage years when they will be sleeping until noon. NOON. Yippeee!!! My stress level has been through the roof these past 3 weeks. My stress level was through the roof during the summer too. So, obviously I need to make some changes.
#1 take better care of myself-which means stop stress eating, start exercising daily -even if it’s a couple of sit ups or run around the house with kids
#2 do a meal plan weekly–this will reduce evening ‘what the hell are we going to have for supper?’ stress
#3 one day during the week get out of the house-BESIDES THE GROCERY STORE!!!!!
#4 try to plan home school for the week-this is unchartered territory
Enough of that. I could go on, and on, and on.
My husband has been working 6 days a week for a while now. He leaves before it’s light and gets home at 7. It has been exhausting on all of us. The kids miss their daddy. I miss him. I think. And having little help around the house is really getting to me. I am not exactly Hilda Homemaker or whatever her name is. There are constantly dirty clothes in the hamper and clean clothes thrown wherever. The teen is constantly annoyed at the messes and stays in her room most of the time. The kids are like 2 mini tornadoes wreaking havoc on every room in the house. The boy knocks things down, tears things up, takes things apart. Meanwhile, I am spinning in circles trying to figure out what to do next.
Now, my writing time is up. I have to go do housework. Tomorrow however, I plan to paint a piece of furniture. That always makes me feel better. TTFN.
When I was young I was shy, feisty and stubborn. When I was a teen I was shy, feisty and stubborn. Except around my peers. I was self-conscious, scared, embarrassed and nervous. I was picked on for being quiet, called weird and felt totally like I didn’t belong. Does this sound like every other teen out there? Most likely. What is it about those years that are the hardest yet they are the best? Suicides seem common. A break-up with a boyfriend, a social embarrassment sends us over the edge. My daughter is 14. She is not quiet. She is stronger than I was. I think, I am pretty sure that she understands herself better.
By 20 I had gained a lot of confidence. By 22 I was a mother. By 30 I still had no clue who I was or what I wanted to do with my life. At 37 I feel like I am finding my voice again. Sometimes motherhood and wifehood kind of knocks you down. Steps on you a bit. Priorities change. YOU are no longer the most important person in your life. Nevertheless it is the biggest blessing ever. My life would be so different without my firstborn. SHE has kept my husband and I together. SHE has made me stronger. SHE has made me grow and learn. SHE completely altered my life for the good.
To be honest I don’t really know where I’m going with this. I am just drinking my coffee and waking up. It is literally flooding outside and I’m worried about our poor garden. The kids keep building Lego towers and bringing them to me then dropping them on the kitchen floor. LOUD. I’m distracted. And I just came out of a deep, pms induced depression two days ago. It was really, really bad. It’s bad when my husband doesn’t want to leave me alone to go to work. It’s all good now though.
Anyway- Happy Day! Thank for listening to my ramblings!
You know those days? The days you just feel like you can’t handle anything. The kids making noise, the dryer making noise, just everything. One of those is days today. So as the day was ending I opened a beer, sat down, and watched a couple of music videos. Breath. I need to start doing yoga. TOMORROW. I have to stop PROCRASTINATING. I would definitely feel better if my body/mind were in tune. I would totally be a different person. But right now a beer will have to do. Until tomorrow. Hopefully, I will get it together. Hopefully, it will not be another BANG HEAD HERE day.
Vacation or work? A bit of both. This is the longest my little ones have been away from home. A challenge in the least. Lots of tantrums. Lots of adjustments. Lots of sand. Lots of fun. Even for the teen.
Valentine’s Day is over. I know. But nevertheless I wanted to share some crafts we did. I won’t share the huge messes we made.
You Are Mine & Wreath
Our finished door LOVE
And this. Oh yes. I won it!! I entered a food photo contest called Food Crush at EarthFare and won. This was so awesome for Valentine’s Day! My husband got away scott free this year.
My EarthFare gift!